Moving Truth from the Head to the Heart
I wanted to post blog entries twice a week. I didn’t want to burden you, my dear reader, with useless drivel by attempting daily postings. So I decided I would post twice a week, on Wednesdays and Saturdays, which was a “perfect” schedule.
But my “perfect” schedule meant that I have been feeling more and more pressured to write the “perfect” entry. Which makes writing tough. It takes a long time to attempt “perfect”, and then it never arrives! I have been dreading my writing, which I normally enjoy.
I have so many thoughts about my Beloved and I love to share them with others so that they can know Him like I do. I don’t have the time or energy for perfection. So out it goes.
“You can’t get to joy by making everything perfect. You can only get there by seeing in every imperfection all that’s joy. The joy is in having the Beloved, not in loving what we have.” Ann Voskamp
My life, my circumstances, are just what He provided for me. I have everything I need because all I truly need is Him. He won’t ask me to do what He hasn’t provided all the resources to do, and that includes time and energy. So I can relax and allow Him to flow His version of “perfect”—or enough—out of me.
“I am calling you to a life of constant communion with Me. Basic training includes learning to live above your circumstances…You yearn for a simplified lifestyle, so that your communication with Me can be uninterrupted. But I challenge you to relinquish the fantasy of an uncluttered world. Accept each day just as it comes, and find Me in the midst of it all…Remember that your ultimate goal is not to control or fix everything around you; it is to keep communing with Me. A successful day is one in which you have stayed in touch with Me, even if many things remain undone at the end of the day. Do not let your to-do list (written or mental) become an idol directing your life. Instead, ask My Spirit to guide you moment by moment. He will keep you close to Me.” Sarah Young, Jesus Calling
The purpose in all of this is to re-realize my need of Him and to turn my attention back to Him. My life is about Him. This blog is about Him. When I can’t do something, I set it down and look away from it back to Him. Then my vision clears and the burden seems its own size again and the peace and purpose resurface.
“I haven’t got anything together and I can stop looking for some hidden door that’s going to someday open up to my real, perfect life and I can stop waiting and I can start laughing praise, because this wondrous mess, this is it.” Ann Voskamp
This wondrous mess of Deanne Bullock—this wondrous mess of my marriage and my family and my church and my house and my blog—this is it. This is my opportunity to need Him and to have Him step up and be the best version of me that is possible.
And your wondrous mess is too. He is enough. Choose to accept that today.